oh shit...

this is truly fucked up. oh holy crap... im going through that 'OMFG you wankers' stage. I had a 'nice' day at work and even got extra hours to rake in more money. (Sunday: time and a half!!) Only this morning i was feeling extremely spaced out and really didnt know what was going on. Anyway I get home and there is a letter on the table, (its like I already know what it is, only i figure "since when does post come on a saturday!?"). The top of the envelope reads 'Buckinghamshire Chilterns University College' and I know that this is the end to my good day.

My parents hovered for a while as if waiting for me to say that I was truly the failure that they expected. I have to say now that I expected it too! So I suppose it was only right huh? So I'll just say it... I have just failed my HND for the love of god nick is such a knob head!!!! Its like he had it in for me all bloody year, and nows for him to say right back in my face... "there you go... heres your mark... i hate you! and heres punishment..."

urgh... i feel so... s**t!, like the reason my grades werent achieved is because i was so much of a failure to try to get a grade like this is the first place. Urgh i hate him...so what for me now? I dont even wish to think about the crapo future that now threatens my exsistence...

I dont know what to do! :'( Its all gone so wrong...